My mom woke me up this morning with some news I wish I didnt have to hear.  My grandpa's condition is getting worse and hopefully he can get surgery today.  I lit up an incense this morning to my grandma and the gods and prayed for him.  My mom says that they need to wear masks and gloves now when entering his room.  Sadly, I'm starting to think that my grandpa is slowly drifting because of his heart.  He's scared.  Mentally and emotionally, I know my grandpa cant deal with this and its causing his heart to weaken.  I cant wait for this week to be over so I can see him and my mother.  I know she needs support.  My brother, my aunt, and my 3 cousins are leaving this weekend to go down there but I dont know if they have enough room in the car so I might have to take the bus.

I went to the mall last night with Vi and took a picture with Santa.  I think this is our 4th or 5th year doing this together.  I hate the damn mall.  It was so packed with people!  People everywhere I go, everywhere I turn...sometimes I cant even turn!  I was getting hit left to right with bags and people pushing through me. I had teeny bopppers staring me down.  It was horrible. I hate the damn mall.   Ahhh, it was driving me nuts.  The lines were so long..there was nothing left in the stores and if there was, it was scattered all over the place. Holy crap.  I feel so bad for those who work in retail.  >_< 

My last final tonight. I hope I do well.  *crosses fingers*

The final yesterday was awesome!  Thomas and I did well on our presentation.  The food was yummy, people killed the pot and the rice.  SO much food yesterday and we sat and watched funny videos off of youtube.  One more final to go tomorrow and I'm done!!  Yayyy I cant wait.  I get to sleep in for days next week.  No work, xanga, or myspace....I cant wait!!!

I finally come to work on time and the boss isnt here.  Dang it.

let's hold hands
like a young romance
let's first kiss like the moment we first did
can we make love
like back way in the day

Heaven.  Whats heaven to you?
To me, that feeling of complete bliss. <3

I wish I can hold you tight and tell you that everything will be alright.  Wish that I can make all the pain go away.

I hate calculating my bills.  I only calculated a few..like 2 or 3 and my paycheck is gone.  Argh..I wish I didnt have my car bill to pay =/

Ahh, I need sleep. 

Ben, Kitty, and Reimers came over last night to watch tv and movies.  It was nice to just sit around and do nothing and just enjoy each others company.  I like Underworld. Its a good movie and Kate Beckinsale is HOT!  Even with crazy blue eyes and fangs coming out.  All the shooting and breaking down doors.  Whoa mama. <3

I hate this fucken weather!  It's so freezing cold!!!!!  My car is like iced up....seriously. I'm sitting in my car and I can see the water swirls...*sigh*  time to get more hoodies or something.  hehe, an excuse to go to Target.

Another act of hate crime causes another heartbreak in a family.  I recently found out Sat. night that an ex bf of mine from highschool passed away.  I went to OakHill yesterday to find out more info but it turns out that his funeral was Sat morning and he was cremated.  I wasnt given a chance to see him.  I cant believe that hes gone.  Id never imagine it.  He was a true sweetheart and very caring.  A quiet one who loved music.  The memories stays with me as it has been.  Another reminder to be careful.  Watch who you surround yourself with and know that everything you do has its consequences.  Rest in peace Lap. 

When was the last time you skipped?  I did a little 2-step skip last night.  =]

Friday: Work, then home for the Xmas party.  Went over to my cousins house and man oh man, it took 2 hours for the both of us to get ready.  Damn women couldnt make up her mind on what to wear!  When I gave her an hour notice ahead to get dressed...we were so late for the party but its ok, it didnt start till we arrived hahah. I learned the electric slide, macarena, twist, and 2-step country.  Lien taught the boss and everyone the snap yo fingers.  You'd be surprised how well they catch on and how fun it was to see middle age couples doing it.  Fun fun fun.  After that, I dropped Lien off and changed into jeans and a top and met up with Vannie to celebrate her bday at Cuccini's.  MORE FUN.  Havent seen so many ppl in so long. Then hung out with Robot and Ben and Kitty.  Theres this game, dont know the name, but its hilarious. I find it so amusing...the purpose of the game is to get this guy laid.  It even has parts where you're a sperm and avoiding eggs?  Hecka random ass convo's that they have in that game too. Who the heck made it up?  I also played the counting shoulders game.  Pretty cute.  Garden State is a good movie.

Saturday: I slept like CRAZY!  I love the freaking weekend hahaha.  I finally got my ass out of bed around 2ish or something.  Went to Eastridge with Van and Ashley.  Picked up Vannie and we walked around VF.  I found the shoes that I wanted and I cant wait to get it. =]  Went to eat at Dennys then Vannie went home and I went back to  my place.  Kevin came and picked up the girls and I met up with Mymy.  Went to Milano and had too much fun.  So many interesting things happened that night.  Moi hong.

Sunday: It feels good to wake up in the morning and smile.  I went back to sleep after an hour or so of an interesting experience and didnt get up till 3.  Man, I love being a pig.  Went to Lien's house and hung out for a bit then met up with Mymy at Si's house to watch them play MJ and watch football.  Ate and then got food coma so I knocked out for a good half an hour or so then got up and met up with the other girls to eat crawfish.  My first time and I like it.  I love good talks. I love it when people are so open with me and it helps me to be open too.  I stumble on my words but I like it.  Communication is so important.

I spoiled myself with sleep this weekend.  I woke up at 7 this morning and was like...wtheck...why cant I start work at 12?!  Just gotta get through this week....

From Friday night.  Doua, me, and Lien.